In life, it sometimes seems impossible to move forward, or at least at the speed I like to go. There are so many days where I feel like despite all I have on my to do list, the only thing that gets checked off would be the things added last minute and perhaps one or two small tasks. Today, despite my daunting to do list, we had to take an unexpected trip to the doctors. Luckily, my baby girl is just fighting a bad ear infection, but having a 1 and half old home all day (especially when sick) definitely keeps things from getting done.
It's days like these, that I especially need to keep life in perspective. I have to continue to remind myself that things will get done in due time and that life is not a race. My business may not grow at the pace I would like, but that I should be proud that I have a business and that I do something that inspires me and that I am passionate about. I need to keep the overachiever in me at bay and just focus on being present with my children and my family, as they are the ones who need me most.
This past year we have spent a lot of time trying to focus on family and what is important in our lives. Focusing on health, fitness, and spending quality time together. We don't always get to spend as much time together as we would always prefer, but we do try to make sure the time we do have is spent well. Today in addition to taking the kids to the doctors and caring for my daughter I have managed to get a few important tasks taken care of during her nap (i.e. paying my sales tax, balancing the checkbook, paying company bills, and preparing client orders) - now any additional editing I get done is simply bonus. I am not even going to trick myself into thinking I will have time to focus on marketing today because if I do I will only end up compromising the time I need to spend with my daughter while she is ill. One day, she will be older and self sufficient and I will find a little more time on my plate, but I am not at all ready for that day and do not want to speed time.
As I sit here writing this I can't help but think of the irony of my mother's own recent setback. My parents just went on a trip to Scotland and Iceland and only a few days into the trip my mother slipped and fractured her ankle very badly. She had to have surgery today and they fly home tomorrow - cutting their trip very short. It will probably be 6 months before she is healed which seems like a major set back in so many ways. I hope that instead, it gives her the break she has been needing (no pun intended) and allows other people around her to take care of her for a change.
I guess my thinking is a little all over the place today, but the main thought that I want to put out there is how important it is to slow down and be present in our lives. Sometimes when we don't slow down on our own, life may slow things down for us - and when that does happen instead of letting the anxiety of due dates and task lists get the best of us, I hope we can all just sit back and take life in.
That's all from me today.